today is the day
where dad and mum, divorced.
it was such a heartbroken for a moment.
although i wasnt there to watch the scene.
i was working at that particular morning,
when dad texted, " kakak dan adek, kepunyaan papa."

is it really happening?
well, is it really true?
for what ive read?

unfortunately, YES.

i was happy at a moment.
when dad called,
i start to leak like a pipe.
lotsa thing running in my mind.

boyfriend in camp.
so, farhanah, the person to talk it out with.
i was crying like hell.
( although i gotta good make-up done today)

she came and sat beside me.
talking to me.
then naz came,
and both of them start to accompany and talk to me.

and naz keep saying,
"its not the end of everything".

and as for farhanah,
she said,
"you still have friends who support you, a father,a brother and a lovely boyf."

which i think,
what both of them said is true.

but,
will my mom love me as she used to?
50 percent may be a ,NO.
why?
she do all bad stuff on me.
and hurts me badly.

another half of me,
a mom.
which mother doesnt love her kids?
afterall she the one giving birth.

majorities of you may be asking?
why Liyana follow her dad instead of her mom?

here's the reason why,
just one answer , answers to all.
HE SUPPORT AND ALWAYS ENCOURAGE ME WITH WHAT IM DOING.

as for mum,
never.
lotsa apportunities i let it go just like that,
well of course woth her No(s) and dont(s).

the other is,
it her BIRTHDAY, yesterday.
and today, marked out, she lost her kids.
sad isnt it?
if it happens to me,
i feel the same way too.

dad do also told me,
she gossips about me and my brother with my uncle earlier on.
at court.
like, "stupid for following their father and they will regret"/

do you think i am?
i dont think so.
well for now.
boyf is fine dad too.

its just not about strict or something.
its about how she treated me.
well, some of you might probably knows what she had done.

i tried to be strong.
i just couldnt face the challenge,
thats all.

and i even couldnt face her at home.

will she talks to me?

will she wake me up?
although sometimes not.

all ????? is in my head.
asking me How?.

but i do believes,
their seperation is the happiness for us.

maybe gimme somtime on my own.
probably could handle it.