when shouting strikes.
quareling queueing.
voices of tones gets highed up.
betrayal here and there.
this is where all begins.
where they talk things out.
bring it out which all have been kept secret within em'selves.
and within me, which they complaints too.

why it happens now?
why not a few month ago?
why not last year ,
when it started.

half of me was happy.
its like,
haa, its finally happen.
they really gonna seperated.
but,
a sudden feeling of sad
happens this morning.

tears ran down my cheek.
wad wrong with me?
isnt tis is wad ive been expecting?
why im tearing tears now?

i have to sacrifice.alots.
if following my dad.
dad plan to stay with her sis.
which is my aunty.
at toapayoh.
damn bloody hell far.
and he will find a new house.
renting type.

if yet mum doesn't want to divide this house.
which we all stayed now.

mum being a story teller last nyte to her brother.
asshole nabeychibai!
she told that she's been sleeping in the kitchen.
but thats wad she wanted.
okie, maybe u readers get confused.

my mum and dad doesnt sleep together animore.
since last year.
so mum decided to sleep alone at the kitchen.
which we hav a small room .
that usually for maid.
u knoe dat kind.
i did offered her to sleep with me before.
but she insist.

so yeah.
dats wads happen.

so,
now he's telling my uncle.
thats she was sleeping there bcoz of my dad.
dad did asked her to come back to him as husband and wife.
yet she insist.

u ppl tell me.
how to divorce??
dad still love her.
but she's not.

back to the story...
then its like fucktup!
my uncle questioning me.
"asal liyana tk tido kt dapor?"

its like bloody hell laa.
ehk hello aper standard ako0 tdo dapor sak?!
arent it supposingly to be my brother?
not me.

and guess wad.
he offers me, mum and adeq to stay with my granny.
NO WAY MAN!! u gotta be kidding me.
i know my dad.
he wont tangan my mum.
and im not gonna stay with granny.
walaupon pintu sentiasa terbuka untuk kiter sumer.
no way man!
granny already nyanyok.
perangai also not in a good condition.
bertambah nyanyok sakk ako0!
blehh jadik giler dok serumah mcm nie.

be truthfull.
i hate mum's side.
they are like the rulers'.
like my mum.

everytime raya.
always sumthing they will say.
esp my aunty ida.
"liyana,kalau liyana mcm nie...blahh blahh blahh"

fuckering ass kan??

my dad's side.
well actually me and my cuzz okie.
quite bonding last time.
now not animore.
esp after growing up.
we were close last time.
we play around tog when we were young.
celebrate bday tog.
its all becoz of my late nyai(granny).

ouh well.
i kn cucu kesayangan granny and grandad.
hmms.
ouh imishem'
i was a gd gurl last time.
since they passed away,
i was totally diffy.
i admit.im bad.

okie.
about my parents.
damn.
ive no idea wads going to happen next.

dad admit.
he did have sex.
with "gurl next door".
as in pelacor.
he paid it wad.
im fyne with it.
gasak dier ahr.
coz mum doesnt want to have sex wih him animore.
atleast he dint keep any mistress or any girl aite?
like me mum.
he having affair with a guy name yahya.
heard her conversation with her brother that,
she trust that guy than my dad.

fuckingfuckted aite?

ive heard dat yahya,
was maried and have kids.
ehich im not sure its a facts or fake.
hms.

yesterday.
we the four of us.
i mean.
julie naz iin and myself.
having fun shopping.

and the two guys caught being fishy.
they wanted to buy rings for the 2 of us, me and gf.
and somehow, they dunt knoe the place,they've got lost.
and also doesnt know our sizes.
lols.

lovee,
pretend to check my fingernails.
waddahell.
so damn obvious.
julie,
was told that.
naz holding her hand between his fingers.
rite gf/naz??

turns out. my lovee,
bought the wrng size.
he took the medium one.
but,
too loose for me.
so we change to small one.
and i shop some stuff.
bouth some neckkie.
heartt-shapped pendant which i badly wants it.
and not forgetting bestty neckiie.
i have the "friend"
julie got the "best"

caught this cute wallet at ripcurl.
luckily dint bought it.
when julie spotted a cute cuteness
roxy wallet.so bought 2 of it..
sepasang laa sehh!!
woohooz.
i knoe u want it too juliana.
lols.
u can run but u cant hide!

ive been falling in lurve again.

hehehe.
ngn md salihin bin selamat.
handsome.


okie ends.
going out again.
today wearing blackk.
4 of us.
black parade laa nie.
hehe..

cyo0uyall