im so pissed off these days.
with whoever i want.
especially my lovee,

*theres a reason why im reacting like dat laa

just dint understand wads going on these days.
why must always dat name ive been heard??
am i being too bloody jealous??
or am i supposed to be jealous??
and,
do i have the right to be jealous??

why oh why oh why???

urgh!!!!
u will knoe if u ppl in my situation.
nvmz.
no point of me to argue about.
mensus coming in short while.
so maybe part of it, makes me this way.
but,
pls laa dunt blame mensus for dat.
its got nothing to do with it.

i knoe niat dier baik.
menolong sesama insan.
but,
isnt it too much..
being cared about that friend,
like more than a friend?

and yesh!!
i admit to u.
im being fucking jealous.
im a gurl here.
all gurls have this feeling aite??
i dunt wanna be an idiots.
biler anithing or sumthing worst happen,
then regrets due to dint take action on it.

god!!
wads going on.
im not blaming anione.
but,i just hated it badly.
if that person in my place.
bet he/she will feel the same thing.

talk to julie about it.
julie was abit speechless.
advise to be calm myself.
.........
keep thinkikng of it.
am i thinking too much??

am i to be blame for this jealousy of mine??

17 missed call received last nite.
all from him.
handphone and home phone.

1 msg.
"u plz angkat de fone... "

lovee,
cant talk to u on e fone.
i just cant.
im not in a gd situation.
i just dunt know how to start.
im not sure.
maybe u will blame me for being suspicious too much..
maybe u will disappointed with me just becoz of jealousy
scared if u cant put a trust on me
or, u might say i cant put a trust on u.
u can also said dat,
i cemburu tk bertempat.
jealousy not in a right place.
i just cant understand,
why must u mention dat name.
i knoe u trying to help and care.
i tau u niat baik..
isnt it to0 much of concern i supposed to say??
but wad has happen to that person,
can also happen to us.
isnt it??
nothing is impossible in this world.
anithing can also happen by one glance.

sobbing the whole nite.
thinking.
whether im doing the right or wrong.
slept at 2 plus.
he never fails to call me.
haiz...

we had alot of fun earlier on.
we went to vivo.
just window shopping.
then met julie and naz at KFC.
ate abit.
julie wanted to check out some teddys at vivo.
since she's there.
why not meet her up.
its also been quite a long time dint met her.
her Malacca trip was alright.
*alhamdullilah.

me and love went to mcd,
its before we met julie and naz.
surf the net there.
actually i was so tired to carry my lappie.
or should i say, LAZY.
yepps im lazy orite.
thought we gonna window shopping
or chill outs.
i wanna spent time with him the whole day.
dats wad i want.
and dats the reason i took off.
i wont be free on weekends.
i felt that ive been treated badly by the supervisor.
how come i have to work on weekends.
coz some of them, are off.
and 1 day off.
haiz.
tireds.
boreds.
sickening.
back to the story.

from mcd,
we headed ourself to the level 3
or should i say roof-top??
whatever the called.
both of us.
chilled ourselves.
talk.
yet lovee, still playing some games
and listening to songs on my lappie.
haiz.
nvmz.

we went Toy'R'us..
went for a walk.
lovee scared me with
gummie gue-eee rubbery cocky cockroach.
my heart beat was fast.
thnks ahr.
julie also disurbed me.
lols.
i walked fast to the exit.
yuckks!
so,

the four of us went home.
took 166.
lovee was playing cards on my lappie.
and on music.
just awhile.
till he get mabok and headache.
haiz.
he went to take a small nap.
after refresh his face with facial spray.
damn.
reached clemmie.
took the train tog.
left naz.
he went to sent julie.
say goodbye to lovee at jurong east.

called him as i reached home.

still at sembawang.

watched teevee.
called julie.
talk to her.
gurls to gurls gossips.
hangat!!
lols.

i was happie with the outings earlier on.
but,
just abit disappointed after reached home.
dint knoe why this have to happen.
why must that person have to go and
find that person.
im not gonna say the name laa.
no point of it also.
why must be so concern??
that person been quite silent,
nothing creates problem.
why must you find that person.
who are you to that person??
friends or more??

isnt it u being cared so much??
and again i heard that name.
damn.

wads wrong with you?
wads wrong with me?
wads happening??

like i said i dunt blame dat person.
but why you always start it now?
why you being secretive to me?
i knoe, i dunt need ure full infoz of wad u did a day.
but, urgh!


why??!!

so you dunt blame me,
why im reacting this way.
coz imreacting this way becoz of you.
sikit2 namer dier.
i have a feelings.
of jealousy,
sadness,
and happy.
im also human!!

berkechamok sak!!!!!!
if you think you are doing sumthing rite.
fyne.. continue it.
kan senang u just go with that person since ure concern!!

eeeeeee!!!!!

and i seriously on purposed,
dint put down the fone earlier on.
on the conversation.
you wanna knoe why?
coz why,
u thinks easy just like.
leaving my boyfie,
chat the whole nite with sumone else?!

i try my best not to sleep.
well,did felt sleepy.

im so fucking high blood pressure/stress
boiling sak!
dunt make my volcano errupt.
errupted corrupted nanty.

GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



love him badly that i wont let him go!


concertrating to targets. and yakdoosh!.main game laa tu.muker takmo frust tonggek kie sayang.lols


the sweetest couple i knoe. julie and naz. =))


this gurl name, Juliana. she my bestest bestte!! who never fail to make me smile and help me when im needed her.


and this, my lovee, Md Salihin. one and only. not gonna let him go easily. love hym soo muchies.he's mine. no touching. no eye twinking okie!undersetan??.


okie this guy here belong to my bestte julie.lols.